Wishbone Soup Cures Everything

A diversion from routine today: word play has ensued offline and here I have a series of pictures from my second walk to the storm felled tree.  Picking up a camera (or a sketchbook) is another way to interpret to yourself what in your surroundings is beautiful, inspiring, worthy of appreciation. Some locations are easier than others :-)

The dream follows me all day, without objection. A twinge, barely detectable, of some regret, of a lack; of wanting, that is the worst of it. In the woods, stumbling; all this crunching underfoot; it looks as though the trees have had themselves a wild ruckus. Where the wind does not reach the quarry pool surface, a meditative mirror lies. The river runs riotous. A moss ball nods in the moving air; seems like a sage old head on a young spike, like it knows what I aspire to. A room of my own, a writing shack: something that would not seem out of place in this den of iniquitous fought out trees; I would gather the debris for my fire; or half buried in a sand dune; on the roof, paint an X. An attic corner, shared with spiders. A travelling desk in the back of a camper. An office room with safety conscious furniture, all rounded edges and stern colour. In the dust of a long abandoned ballroom, under the chandelier… underground, with luminescent rock. A geothermically heated fo

Above the lane a blue clearing leads towards the woodlands. When I was a girl growing up on a beach sand paths led through rock pools as the tide drew in clear amongst the weaving bladder wracks: this is how the sky appears. Tarmac is storm pitted like bad teeth. Off road mulched: storm chippings. Boots crunch: like sand. Boots sink: wet sand. Hear the river waves, how they curl over rock beds. Under the spread of the woods; freshwater damp, dappled, pale bright buds, ground cover leaf, dark earth trail, sallow slash of snapped branch… this pushed over tree: the roots rise, drag fine soil out of the slate ground, flattened in profile, a wall of undertree: like the underwater: another world. This earth path winds around up out of the woods, returns to the clearing in the clouded sky. Sun paints: red gold on a smiling face. Photos are of an older split tree- forgot my camera today!

Today we were given our old weather back, which must have been an error: a muddle up of cloud paperwork perhaps or a practical joke, or the storm had got home and remembered it had left its keys or a glove and had to come back to retrieve: it had a half hearted feel to it like it was bored of all this flood destruction too. Someone says, convincingly, that tomorrow the sun is strongly rumoured to be thinking of paying us a visit but, despite this swell of optimism, meticulous inspection reveals the weekly forecast symbols as a series of repeats: one podgy cloud, wringing wet. Days like these are good for dreaming. Coconut rice steams in the oven. Lime pickle sharp against the salt-sweet rice; balmy spices in our Leftovers Curry. A conservatory is dreamt of: humid and abundant. It smells of citrus and coffee with undertones of damp slate. Viewed through glass roof frames the sky is continuously perfect. Back in reality, in the field, the welly boots stick in mud, squelchy,

Morning comes, cloudless blue, a trim of river mist: at the garden edge water vapour stripes up like ghostly fence posts. Four rain filled teapots on the pallet table have stood untouched through all the storms, a fact we remark upon almost daily and still seems unfeasible. The phone rings, interrupts this musing on fragility. Girl's voice blubs, indecipherable: says something like- it's silly I know - the words blur. Sorry honey, her mother says, I can't hear you. Girl says, 'Bunny: Bunny is gone.' Ian Button Bunny was his full name. Eight years his dwarf life spanned. He lived both indoors and out, often pursued by toddlers. He took everything in a cute yet charismatic stride. He liked the snow, and cuddles; disliked white cabbage. He would give you a look. This last year he had got arthritic. Should she tell her little daughter, my grown up Girl wonders? She feels silly for crying though she knows it's right. She knows the answer to her questi

Warmth on the face is traced to source: proof that the sun is gathering influence: that summer is not always absent. Enough warmth and light to ignite memories: so while the feet paddle now in the saturate field; the mud like clay slip; flip-flops are recollected, and hot beaches, and cold pretty drinks in dainty glasses, and other emblems of optimism that infuse a sense of steady contentment. Flowers will grow. Fruit will follow. 

The full moon in February is known as the Full Snow Moon, having the reputation of drawing down the deepest snowfall. Snow is scant, this year, here: blown far northwards. Friday brings another storm. It shakes until we fear it: so much pitch and toss we are not sure if we are on land anymore. Trees bend like seaweed. Limbs are broken. The sky is a surge of cloud: almost mythical. Car tyres catch on splintered wood, in the suck of flood puddles. It will be okay, I soothe; there's a bottle of wine waiting, a wedge of cheese. Glasses clean in the cupboard and the fire lit. It will be okay; the gears go down, the revs go up, the car pulls through, leaves a proud wake; there is red wine, a rich slice of Bowland cheese. The house lights are shining, multiplied in the slants of rain as the car reverses and is tucked alongside the stone shed, at an angle where the roof tiles won't slip through the windscreen. Hopefully. The glance up is squinted: automatic: stymied. Cloud

Oh pretty! In the lanes, Little Granddaughter sing-songs delight; plucks the white bells from their stems: why would anyone want to pick the stems? She peers avidly inside at the green petal stripes, the stamen's yellow flame. With these treasures she can buy several elephants. (That plain line of stem? A technicality.) At home, the elephant food must be mixed by hand. There are other things to do: sweep up, chop root veg, fill up the washing machine, reflect on life. But the elephants are hungry, Little Granddaughter says. Four bowls of acorns should suffice. Nam-ma look! Partially hypnotised by repetitive acorn pouring, Nam-ma looks up. Little Granddaughter presses the clear bottle to her face, distorts the familiar grin. Nam-ma bounces with surprised laughing. Oh, funny! At the table they sit, two warped chortlers.

Thinking of ice; of the inconvenience caused by the car doors' propensity to freeze; of a winter postcard drive with scarves and the heater slowly cranking; the car that works was wrapped last night in an old duvet cover. But this morning nothing is frozen, nothing stilled: storm wind flares the cover, rain streams the lanes, the ivy is blown off the house, bits of it whip over the ground, tentacle-ish. Every window is squeezed shut. No one looks forward to walking the dog: not even the dog. Time presses till there's no more excuses. Time for waterproofs; Wellingtons; walking. To venture under bending trees and test the depths of mud. But this afternoon sky is clear. Sunshine crinkles eyelids, turns water into gems. Beautiful is a shade of blue, a hue of green, a soft toned pebble: it's in the curve of the earth, in the open sky. The wind is charmed, gets sleepy, stops. Dark and cloud return together, like a curtain dropped. But then lightening; a thunde

Snowdrops white-flare in sun: overcast they embrace a wistful prettiness. The sky is gathering dark: into the cold pool of sky: clouds are beginning to dissolve. We are working in a school while the old town hall hosts a musical production. It smells like soap; fake floral, somehow reassuring. Outside, the last winter month splices into spring. In here; the lunch benches, the climbing bars, the bold childish brushstrokes on thick paper, the wires that hang from the back of a stereo; that clean scent. The last class gather in through the fire doors, in from the night. It's snowing.

Are you sitting comfortably? Once upon a time there were gentlemen, outwardly gender defined by tailoring and facial hair. There were gentlewomen at this time as well, with plump hair and laced in waists. And the fashion of this time was not all coiffure and garb but also social. Support for the orphaned, the bereaved, the enslaved, the badly housed, the homeless, the sick, the malnourished, the uneducated and the generally oppressed was the height of good manners. Social conditions improved, though they were never perfected. Gender identification became less important to intelligent people, and the costumes more user friendly, though sometimes less pleasing to the eye. Philanthropy remains chic, to this day. Money is after all quite useless unless in some kind of use. Beyond a certain level of stuff, there is too much stuff and it becomes oppressive, not fun: not glad to be alive at all. To effect joy is a regenerating act: it brings freedom to the giver and the recei

Photograph by Layla Burford: thank you :-) Breakfast is messy; thick, hot, sweet; baked banana pancakes. Leftover espresso recycled with boiled water. Steam does a little dance over the mugs. We think we might be awake. Shirts pressed, ties tied, blazers brushed. Outside everyone winces in the wet cold. The paperwork is safe in plastic boxes. A short drive is admired for its convenience. We do not always have the benefit of convenience. In the car park are people shrinking which has a logic to it: less rain falls on a smaller area. We greet as we walk, brisk, chirpy, into the school and down the corridor and into the hall and say more hello, hello and get on with jobs. Wheel the meal tables out, stick floor numbers down, lay out the paperwork, find pens, count students, file them out. Herd them into grades, say Do This Do That and what, for example, can you tell me about why we do it. Sigh for their disappointments. Admire their achievements. Herd them up again fo

Yesterday in the polytunnel it was discovered: a short distance of panel had blown from its fixing: swiftly mended: battened down before it becomes a hatch. Tomorrow the biggest storm is expected. Cornflower, now, this morning sky: smooth as plaster in a fine country house. Boy goes walking to take in the blue, to breathe some dry air. As he steps up the driveway the backdrop blackens. He looks over his shoulder. 'I enjoyed that calm,' he says. Exit stage left, pursued by cloud … Wind catches like flames, roars over the fields. It sings in the wires and throws rain everywhere. On the city road colours trail; finger smudges in wet chalk; neon signifiers of modern isolation; a beautiful city stoicism. In the car just me and music communing with weather and deep water hues. Out from the city the unlit roads draw glitter from headlights. Shadow trees bend. How rain dances: silver on graphite: siren calligraphy. First crocus! Cheery precursor of sprin

No storm today. Rain and a trudge around some local damage. In the lanes potholes are ground deeper by a swill of loose stone. The fat trunked ash is conveniently falling twig by twig. Next door fares a leaky front room and a greenhouse left more frame than glass. We lean over the fence, observe the wrecked reflective pieces. Elsewhere; we note; other people are prising trees out of roofs: evacuated: more, much more is forecast: weather talk stumbles out of the anodyne zone into an apocalypse. The sky lies on the horizon, innocuous grey, keeps us guessing.

~ The road is so wet; a long dark throat of it One slit-eye moon rolls Night arches by: note the languorous float of it ~ Like a whale, I think: in the chill deep it lives Calm or storm: comfortable, part of the abyss ~

Something under the ground Outside the converted chapel Creeps up ominous A red bloom spreads On the gravel, looks murderous It's the ruddy earth, or the terracotta brick Or we are mistaken And things are as unseemly as they seem… In the morning sky Pink and dark Clouds bloom Over Carzantic: storm roses.

The holiday voucher is handed over at reception. Tea and scones are available. In the room a fine tassel hangs from a wardrobe key. Complimentary sherry in cut glass. Sash windows overlook carved owls, flagstones, lawn, curls of distant cloud. A walk next: an exploration of Brent Knoll's steep gradient. Curiosity is a great propellant. The sky gods: feisty, buffeting, sending footprints off at quirked angles. At the summit are craters, a grassed over moon surface. A 360 view spins, right to left, left to right, until it gets dizzy. Path is a slipway of mud and water. A brook bubbles up and all the way back down to earth and a warm country hotel. There is chintzy print and lampshades strung with beads. Yes, lampshades wearing jewellery: seven courses on the taster menu; liberal use of balsamic: merlot unbottled, lemon cleansed palates, fat bottomed brandy glass, cutlery shining in low light.